What’s been going on? What happened in 2012? A lot related to fitness.
I’ve been trying to lose weight for a while — joined a program, lost 23 lbs. Moved across the country, gained 13 of that back. I’ve since lost that 13 lbs. and a few more, and I’m down 30 lbs. from my all time high, which I bottomed out at nearly 6 years ago.
I’m still 15 lbs. away from my goal, and it’s been a frustrating journey. Don’t get me wrong–I’m proud of the fact that I weigh less. I’m proud of the fact that I look and feel healthier. But it’s been a slog–and whenever I see accounts of friends who’ve lost tons more weight in less than a year, it gets frustrating to stick with the goal and keep on keeping on, even though I’m moving at a snail’s pace.
Add to the slog was the fact that last year I sustained a stress fracture in my shin. This I earned from too much pounding — a decent amount of running, and a lot of jumping rope. I love jumping rope, and I’d worked up to being able to do about 23 minutes at a time. Sadly, the repetitive pounding took its toll.
Recovering from a stress fracture is–to be frank–a complete bitch. I have to be careful about how much pounding I do, to the point where I can’t wear certain shoes because the soles are too thick and it causes me a lot of pain. I have a lot of strengthening exercises to do too–those aren’t the problem. It’s the longing to run and jump that’s keeping me down. I’m allowed to do a run/walk program that’s supposed to slowly let me build up to 15 minutes of continuous running. I can’t do it as often as I’d like because the pain sometimes kicks in. I can jump rope–but only for 30 seconds at a time, lest the pain creep back in. I’ve had to find other forms of cardio, which are sometimes satisfying and sometimes not, depending on my mood. I love swimming, but I don’t always want to get wet, particularly in winter.
Still, when I’m careful, the healing continues. It’s required a lot of work, a lot patience with myself, and a lot of hope. Which might be what this year is going to be all about.